Fears

As I put Meghan down for her nap, she looks up at me with that big smile and those bright eyes and I feel my heart shatter into a million pieces. I feel the weight of it crashing over me. I love this child. I need this child. Meghan is my safety net, catching me when I fall and saving me from my own demise. Despite my efforts to hold myself back, I am attached to her. She is her brother's equal in my heart.