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I know that not everyone cares about my day to day life, or anyone's for that matter. It's like the Twilight books, we don't care what Bella ate for breakfast, nor do we need a detailed description of it every single morning. That said, blogs are not for entertainment. I'm not expecting a huge following or a book deal. I just want a safe place to express my feelings. Yes it's public, but sometimes it's easier to let my friends and family read this than to open up and express this stuff out loud. Mainly, this is just a place for me.

Not Even Close...

I often get comments about how things must be so much easier now, the pain should be fading, I should be healing, it shouldn't be so hard anymore. Ha. You couldn't be more wrong.

Each day that goes by, doesn't less the pain. Each day that goes by is one more day gone by that I haven't had my son in my life.

Up, Down...Weeeeeeeee

I've been on a constant roller coaster of emotions. Worse than the emotions themselves, is the feeling of instability. Nothing is worse than not knowing or understanding how I feel one moment to the next. One minute I'm going along and having a good time, then the next I'm second guessing everything and on the verge of tears.