Let me Remember

Let me Remember

I trace the outline of your face

Close my eyes to hear you laugh

Instead of being able to remember

I hear “Quit living in the past.”

It’s not the voice of my angel

Or the voice of my man

It’s just a number of my friends

Ones who don’t understand

Why won’t they let me remember?   

I know you’re gone forever

But it helps me to grow stronger

When I can remember

It’s a guilt I’ll always carry

Wondering day and night

What we could have done differently

That would make everything alright

I know it isn’t my fault

But it was still my son I lost

So don’t you tell me that it’s ok

To let go and to move on

Why won’t they let me remember?   

I know you’re gone forever

But it helps me to grow stronger

When I can remember

I have another angel

My beautiful little girl

Who I will do anything for

To keep her safe in this world

No, I don’t compare them

Yes, she’ll know who he is

He’s as much of her life as I am

But I know she’s a different kid

She fills my heart with love

But my favorite part about her

Is that while she helps me heal

She always lets me remember

I take the time to remember

And while I know you’re gone forever

That picture of your smile reminds me

That I will continue to grow stronger

I miss you always my son

You’re forever in my heart

And for that reason I have to remember

And sometimes fall apart.

Melanie Horner, 5/20/2011

Thank you for writing this Melanie. You're a very special person to me. Love you girl!